after I lost all on futures & my holdings are stuck as loan collateral, I can do some thing I always wanted : a fantasy football league with prizes .. can anyone here help me do it ?

I'm done with futures .. everything I made in 3 years was gone yesterday, ~450$ , (lost 170$ in futures & the rest as loan collateral)
I might be sad for the money -a year salary- but I'm devastated for the time wasted

I started with 6$ only and add 4$ to my capital every month, so 150$ total.
I was trading from a wallet before binance was allowed in my region, making literally few cents profit per trade with 1 cent fee, I turned that 150$ investment into 300$ .
then moved to binance where in a few months turned it to 450-500$ .
I want to try futures, but I'm spot holding crypto with all my money, so I took a loan to use it in futures putting all my crypto as collateral
long story short I got liquidated 3 times, recovered the first 2 time, made some profit, then came yesterday and wiped me out .

now I can't pay back the loan, half of my collateralized crypto already liquidated and the other half will be liquidated sooner or later, there is nothing I can do .

that's my #story , I wish I took your #advice and quit futures after the first liquidation .