Brothers, don't be discouraged

I've hit rock bottom. Sometimes I really question myself, whether I am a gambler. From the initial contracts to the current situation, I've experienced countless ups and downs. I just don't want to be too ordinary. I always want to prove myself in front of my parents and classmates. Maybe deep down, I am an insecure person. But when I think about it carefully, I'm only twenty years old. I just don't want to live a stable, ordinary life. Am I wrong? I don't want to graduate quietly and work a regular job for an ordinary life. I want to take risks, but I can't afford the cost. I reflect on myself; maybe I'm just too eager, too eager to prove myself. #加密人生