Three days ago, she gave me an ultimatum: to pay all the alimony and housing fees in a lump sum since the divorce, totaling 35,000 yuan, or I must move out this week.
The 120,000 compensation the company owes me has not been received yet. The house has been listed for sale for several months but hasn't sold.
My mood has retreated, and my assets have followed suit.
I calculated the expenses. Delivering food earns 200-300 a day, barely making 2,000 a week. The 2,000 for the drawings hasn't arrived yet. In the hedge account, it has retreated from a high of 595U to 559U. Adding together all the money I can gather, I'm still far from 35,000.
I ran deliveries until 1 AM last night and got up again at 6:30 this morning. Every extra order counts, and every extra yuan counts.
I opened my account to take a look: estimated total assets 559.97 USDT, today's P&L -0.19 USDT (-0.03%). BFUSD 390.23U (earning interest), BNB 43.2U (down -0.16% today), USDT 95.02U (ammo).
The market dipped from 595U to 559U, losing almost 40U. The main culprit is the drop in BNB, while the JPY and KRW indices are still hanging high. The floating losses in my grid positions haven't been closed yet. I know pullbacks are normal; hedging isn't just about one-sided gains, but watching the numbers drop still weighs on me.
It's like my mood these past few days—hit with an ultimatum, trying my best to scrape together money, but no matter how I try, it’s never enough. The debt collectors keep calling, and I can't bring myself to answer. If I do, I can only say I'm repaying, and I’ll pay again at the end of the month.
The only good news is that the fire safety drawings for the foot massage center—they said they'll definitely make the payment this week. 2000 bucks, I'll transfer it to her as soon as it arrives, but I'm still far from the 35K goal. For the remaining gap, I can only hustle with delivery orders one at a time.
The hedge in gold and silver is still running, with 100x leverage in platinum and palladium doing just fine. But the BNB pullback is dragging everything down. I keep telling myself that pullbacks aren't scary; what's scary is making rash moves. The grid hasn't changed, and the parameters are intact. Just hang tight; the price difference will come back.
Recording this at Binance Square isn't to play the victim; I want to tell those still in the slump: living authentically is better than anything. Faced with ultimatums, asset pullbacks, and life’s obstacles, you have to stand firm first to have a shot at a comeback.
If you're also in a slump, don't give up. We'll push through together.
If you comment 'together' in the comments, I'll send you my grid parameters. No fee.
