Surely, who would be foolish enough to do that?

I'm new here, haven't been able to take any alpha deals, today I've already lost 50 dollars in transaction fees for 16k volume, but I accidentally spent 5 million on a course already, everyone please give me advice, should I continue or not, I'm under too much pressure :((
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