Still feeling exhausted, but without any sleepiness.
Approaching 34 years old, I suddenly seemed to understand some truths. People should not only be responsible for themselves, but also for those around them...
In the first year of working at 19, due to youth and ignorance, I faced the test of the gates of hell with cephalosporins and alcohol. My consciousness still remembers the cold 4 hours in the emergency room, although I was completely unaware at the time.
The sequelae after this tortured me for several years. Although it was later confirmed to be sinus tachycardia + mild premature ventricular contractions.
Often waking up in the middle of the night, unable to breathe normally, with muscle spasms all over my body, sent to the hospital by my family to 'inhale oxygen'...
In those years, the various examination reports and ECG sheets I made were several times thicker than the thickest Xinhua Dictionary I had ever seen. (This is also the reason I went to sleep right after watching Zhang Xuefeng's news last night 🤡)
In fact, I had already understood at that time that it wasn't really a physical problem, but my spirit and will were still constantly reminiscing about pain, as well as fear and anxiety about death. Perhaps before that, I was a complete E-person, but afterward, I became a thorough i-person.
It wasn't until I had been recuperating for nearly a year and had seen multiple psychologists that I went out to work. I refused the 'iron rice bowl' arranged by my family and went into frontline sales. (My previous job was in a state-owned enterprise)
That frontline sales job is an experience I am still grateful for, because every day was very, very... tiring. Physically + mentally, so in the continuous running of my business, I exercised my body, and was too tired to have any extra energy to overthink, so I slept well.
But even so, in the first half of that year, I was losing money at work (my salary was not enough to maintain the money I invested in my work), not to mention the energy.
If I hadn't been only 21 at that time, I definitely wouldn't have been able to persist.
Just when I had a moment of hesitation, all the efforts I made before were responded to. In the following year, my income directly broke 7 digits. I stayed in that industry until I was 28. So before I entered the cryptocurrency circle, I had a considerable amount of startup capital.
That was my youth, and also the spirit of my adolescence. 28 was a hurdle for me. In the years before that, I was almost smooth sailing in career, love, etc.
I am a late bloomer, which has made me experience more hardships in my past life, especially after entering the cryptocurrency circle.
Being too relaxed and smooth in my career during my youth made me more restless.
I couldn't take in others' suggestions and advice, so I stumbled through one pit after another. In the past, I considered myself a very, very 'pure' person, which also brought a lot of trouble to those around me.
I think everyone's path is lonely. Because in the entire world, you and I, everyone is unique, so there will be no experience that can completely replicate us... anyway
It is only today that I understand. In fact, when we have true partners, family, and loved ones we want to walk with, and when our goals are aligned, even if the paths we take are different, we will reach the same destination🏁
Well, a new insight into life.
