A brother once said it very well, my all-in on AT is indeed a gamble, and it’s the kind of gamble where I give up on myself, because I was too angry at that moment. I thought I could grab the alpha airdrop of AT, but I forgot about it while picking up takeout, and after missing it, I just went all-in out of spite.

All of this is so painful, and I blame myself for feeling so desolate inside, lacking my own will.

Recently, I have been reading the Analects, and Confucius's concept of 'ren' deeply moves me. It is a noble spiritual state, a kind of self-satisfaction on a spiritual level.

I think that if I could have maintained 'ren' at that time, I wouldn’t have gone all-in out of spite. $AT