I have lost a lot in this market, 180,000 u. Now that I think about it, I regret it. Cash is still a bit more reliable.

I really hate myself. Every time I get on a roll, I become impulsive, don't set stop-losses, and even withdraw my take-profits. I'm stubborn and self-willed. The pain isn't the losses; it's the repeated engagement with this character flaw. I'm truly out of options.