Brothers, hello everyone, I am trader Zhu Yidan. The first day of 2026 is actually no different from your past days. Just because I have a big face and a big smile saying 2026 will treat you better, it doesn't mean that 2026 will be any different.
Intermittent hard work and continuous laziness is my true portrayal. I always think about lying flat and enjoying the present, procrastinating until the next time point, such as tomorrow, the beginning of next month, or the first day of the new year, while enjoying laziness and resolutely deciding to work hard after that day. This is actually just to comfort myself, to make myself feel more justified in lying flat.
So day after day, year after year, most of the things I wanted to do remain unfinished. I haven't succeeded in losing weight and thought I could motivate myself through betting, only to lose to a dog with a LV belt and owe a LV bag. The books I wanted to read still lie untouched on the shelf, not even unwrapped from their plastic. As for learning English, I haven’t opened it for over half a year and remain at a second-grade level.
I am 32 years old this year, and I have at most 3-4 years of golden time left. There isn't much time left for me to change. I really can't accept not seeing my peak self in my lifetime. Low-level desires can be fulfilled through indulgence, while high-level desires require self-discipline to achieve. I'm already tired of the pleasure that can be bought with money; I want to pursue higher-level needs—self-actualization needs, to materialize the excellent version of myself that I imagine and believe in into the real world.
Perhaps writing this is precisely during my intermittent peak of motivation and vigor. Maybe after finishing this article, I will fall back into a continuous state of lethargy, but the fire in my heart is burning stronger and stronger. It occasionally spurs me on: 'Change, right now! At this moment!'