Easier things like observing the stars in the clear December sky while mom takes her pills for the pressure, stress, and that dry cough that has been clinging to her throat for days.
An empty cup bathed in sunlight. Smell of winter on a Tuesday. The red light that flickers before the green. Today, it is not the anxiety of the coming time in the heartbeats, it is the empty root that cleaves the smile; it is this elusive rhizome that wilts despite not existing
Remember my name because the dark part of the heart will make you dream of the forest of burning hope and among the flames the yesterdays will die where you imagined an idyllic and satisfying present future.
Surely someone has the answer (many surely do), but the wet and burning sex like a peeled tangerine in the middle of a dust storm that pulls the afternoon from the roof of the house and moistens the cool muzzle of the same skinny cat that meows and purrs in the painful heartbeat of longing and desire because you cannot overcome the rough doubt of the correct word to express the most tangled question of guts, heart, and lung that you have had until today and all these light and happy years (do not evoke that Thursday or that March of fasts and tears, do not wander through the memory of childhood or impure youth..., it has been so long since you wanted to merge with the dust, forget that dark voice and those wounds that have neither scar nor image in your past, there is no longer doubt in your voice)
Was that the blow here, that buried nail and the lost blood?
There is no scar, only skin on skin.
Skin today and tomorrow to eat the tangerine
and then, what was the light?
You do not know and it is better this way, it is better this way...
I always wanted to flood you, I am sincere but the moon loved me stillborn. And it is valid that you do not think the same as Charly García. You do not like the defects of the body.
In the search, I am of an existence to recharge mine in it, with it. And to smile together at dusk with the harmony of the remainder that from two makes us one.
I will call you one of these nights. Perhaps my call will seem strange to you, perhaps you have been waiting for it. You will accept to see me "her talk has never been too bad, maybe it improved a bit over the years", you will think. I will wait for you there, lovingly breathing the afternoon. I will think of the first words to say to you, I will think of kissing you, I won't be able to hide my anxiety for more than 25 minutes. Suddenly you will arrive and smile upon seeing me... we will recognize each other once again, we will be us again and only us. After having a drink, we will make love. We will breathe in the arrival of the night, agitated. We will laugh with tiredness and affection for nothing, for everything...
Inside there are strange sounds that the brain tries to decipher. Heartbeats and gasping. The veins carry something else, another substance that is similar to blood, but is not blood, it is an amalgam of demons, sins, mistakes, and pleasures.
Wanting everything sometimes is too much. I thought of waves crashing against you (like torrential rain, I thought). On the true sand, everything is lost. Does desire determine the worth of people? There is an incalculable value in desire, but desire fades from our veins, and when in other mouths you hear the song denied to yours, you discover that although it may not be easy for you, it is for someone else.
The night slows down its sane beats, but the night also stimulates death. You do not speak with the fairies or with the demons, each time you hear their voice less. Something falls and in the distance, the wind can be heard.