This world is originally a huge scam, living is hope, come on!

$ZK I have nothing left, this money is all borrowed from my family and loans, I don't know what to do, I can't tell them that I lost all their life savings in one night, I thought being 80% away from spot was safe, but I didn't expect that a single needle would end my life. I have no way out, there is no hope for repaying the loans, I am trembling all over, I don't know how to talk to my parents, I can't say anything, even if I kneel and bow my head a thousand times it's useless, is there any way to end life without pain? I am just a clown🤡, my life ends here, I didn't expect it to be like this, I laugh every day at people buying local dogs, I am even worse than a local dog.